To the one who endured the worldly pain to give me life…Thanks Ma!!!

In the middle of the night I as I lay in my bed alone, I wished there was someone close, really close besides me. My back hurt and my arms and legs had begun to swell. Body ache and restlessness had only started to take its toll on me. At that point in time, I wished there was someone to comfort me and ease me off the physical pain. I looked around, prayed hard but found no one….Ultimately submitting to my physical condition, my thoughts just began to fly towards the only person on this earth that would have gone out of her way to help me….to my adorable mother!

On the night of the Mother’s Day, I missed her presence like hell. All of a sudden a pang of guilt enveloped me. My heart started to bleed upon thinking of her. Oh! How I missed her magical touch that has always rescued me out of the mess, comforted me in the worst of times and assured me of her companionship in my isolation. I started to sob like a child and did I barely realize the tears falling down my cheek had wet my pillow.

I sprang out of my bed and cried aloud to her, for her. Ma where I you, I whispered in my loneliness to the air. With my hands covering my face and my thoughts revolving around her, I began to howl. Lord please tell my mommy that I am terribly missing her, please tell to come and give me the much need Jaadu ki Jhappi, I said.

The conscious, sub conscious and unconscious mind seemed to plot against me. The harder I tried to drift my feelings away from her the worse it got. My thoughts were constantly spinning around her. Along with the tears and sobs I began to think of the sacrifices she has had to make for me. The me in me began to curse me. Alas with each passing second I began to feel worse.

Will I ever be able to repay her? Can I even thank her enough for giving me life? What can I do to make her feel proud of me every moment? These were some of the thoughts that gripped me and compelled me to ponder about motherhood. Standing at the threshold of motherhood myself, I prayed and prayed and thanked God for giving me a mother as beautiful as her. I thanked Him for having her in life. I thanked her for teaching me the meaning of life. I thanked her for staying up all night to prevent me from dozing off during the exam studies. I thanked her for feeding me when I thought food was not my priority. I thanked her for playing with me in the rain. I thanked her for all the wonderful things and moments that we have shared together. Above all I thanked her for enduring the pain to bring me to this earth. I thanked her for giving me life.

Heart in heart I said a silent prayer for her well being and requested God to make her my mother if ever I were to take birth again.

They say since God can’t be with each one of us at the same time so he send angelic M.O.T.H.E.R.S. to take care of us. How true!!! Mothers are a heavenly blessing to each of us and we must cherish the Almighty’s immortal gift and the most beautiful creation.

Ma you are precious to me, you mean more than my own life to me, and now I realize your timeless and eternal worth, your selfless sacrifices and the meaning of your physical presence. Thank you my Yummy Mommy for being there for me always and forever. Let me take this opportunity to apologize to you all for the times when I have caused you undue pain, have hurt you by acting nasty and have failed to understand the deeper meaning of you sentiments. I know that these words are not sufficient to describe what you mean to me yet let me say this Ma that I love for you for not for what you have done for me but for who you have been to me!

Love you Ma, may all your dreams and desires come true. May you have a blissful life ahead. May joys and success kiss your feet and may you remain the same Mommy to me till eternity!!!